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Best thing is.. I can now type clearly and grammatically correct.. Although I know most of you out there will forgive my random ‘lah’s and ‘loh’s.. :P
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Just an update to tell that I’m still breathing la.. and to try this add on.. hehe..
Til I get my new brainchild. Ciaoz!
as of today, http://divinition.blogspot.com is officially closed. there isn't anymore a reason to write about my life.. because i have no life.. NS has taken that away.. there will be no more additions to this diary..
goodbye...
oh well, good things sometimes have to come to an end.. and i mean sometimes only!!! at least they made my farewell a happy one.. hmmm.. went to midvalley on saturday.. was supposed to be there at 12 to go get present for ginny ler.. haha.. long overdue.. haha.. but i woke up late.. you know la.. have to enjoy these last few chances to sleep late late and wake up fashionably late as well.. haha.. so i reached at round 1 liddat.. haih.. finding a god**** parking space already drove me nuts... then when i finally do.. i had to go snatch back from a group of girls who were blind enough not to see me putting a signal to show i was there first and that space was MINE! so in the end, they sent one of their stupid friends to go 'book' the place after the 'existing tenant' of the parking space left.. i was like WTF??? they can't see me signalling a?.. WTFFFF???? so i horned like nobody's business... just kept my hand on the centre of the steering wheel.. haha. for like 30seconds or something la.. then when the 'existing tenant' came out, (and at that time, i was like SUPER SUPER TU LAN liaoz.. ) so i just drove right at the 2 girls who were standing there.. then they started shouting.. then, i couldn't take it anymore.. bad enough that they're scolding me for something i didn't do any wrong, and that i went around the carpark for 20minutes searching for a spot, they were scolding me when i was in a bad mood!!! (cuz thinking bout NS ma.. hahaha.. ) so i wound down the window... gave them the screwing of thier lives.. plenty of profanities included.. hmmmph... sorry if you tihnk i'm rude.. but they really really caught me at the baddest time possible.. hmmm.. so much for mr. gentleman.. hahahahahaha... so in the end, i won la.......................... OF COURSE!!.. hahahahaha... now i know that some girls are really just plain fked up man.. haihzz.. of course, these so called girls a.k.a. "biatches homosapiens united" are only like minority of the population la.. and maybe i know one or two la.. hahaa.. but the rest.. are okay... so girls out there.. there's like a 90% chance u're not one of em.. hahahaha.. (no offence intended in this paragraph.. =p)
then the good day started.. went to see gin, but she not there (pet's wonderland) liaozz.. so i went to get tics for CONSTANTINE lo.. wooohoo.. haha.. in the end like got 7 ppl watch.. me and sab, kel and EC, jon tan, sheng jie (going to kelantan for NS.. T.T ), and julia.. then ask gin where she was, then she say coming up.. so haf to go buy her present liao lu.. ($$$ fly away..) so she wanted a cage fer her hamster lo... tot like 30 40 buck oni wan... WTF, go there like 80 buck the cheapest man!!! i like oh shit man.. the problem of "$$$ fly away" tripled or quadrupled.. haahahah.. then settled for the 80 buck one lo.. haha.. so i told ginny, (being the cheapskate person i was.. hahahha.. no ler.. just low on cash dat day.. huhuhu... ) "eh, we split half half la k?.. haha... so expensive.. =p" she didn't reply wo.. haha.. so i took as yes lo.. then add another like 3 little mineral chewies for hamsters shaped like mc'ds ice creams.. = RM14... haha... then pay dat time.. i only saw RM35 on her hand.. ooooppsss.. i thought to myself.. maybe got problem leh my eyes.. hahahha... so she said.. nvm le.. as though hinting to me, "the rest u pay ler.. nvm nvm nvm ler.." haih.. being the good, generous, kind, caring, compassionate and NS-bound friend that i was.. heck with it la.. pay only ler.. but deep down, i promised i'm gonna ask for expensive present for myself too.. kekekekekekekee.. right gin?.. hahahahhaha.... so i pay lo... haih.. fly fly away... (julia came in halfway.. =p)
then met up wid cheese a.k.a green cheese a.k.a guy-who-treats-hair-wid-treatment-everyday a.k.a topman official customer a.k.a Cheese Seng.. hahaha.. =p JOKIN! gin left to see Lemonny Snickets.. then went on to meet sab, kelly, EC, jon.. haha.. went to sushi king for lunch.. where i *sigh* spent julia some california rolls.. hahahahahaha.. =p then went back to pet's wonderland to see the hedgehog they were selling there.. walau.. i want that pet!!! wooo.. super super cute lo.. haha.. like tiny porcupines.. hahaha.. RM400!!!! and that's discounted price.. haihz... out of my reach liao.. haha.. then went to see the movie lo.. hmmm.. the most satisfying thing was that i got to go out wid my baby after such a long time.. the movie was kinda okay ler.. hmmm.. portrayed LUCIFER as a fat mafia boss.. but got lil ying-ness in his own funny way la.. muahahahahha.. overall, i'd give it a 6 out of 10.. hehehe.. cheese thinks it's a 3.. =p then EC, jon and sheng jie left, leaving us 6 (me, sab, kel, julia, cheese, and zero) to go walk walk round MV.. last time for me.. sob sob.. then decided to buy kelly's present.. hmmm.. went' to vincci la, to 3point6 la, and lastly to xara (or izzit zara..) haha.. but nothin could catch kel's eyes ler.. hahaa.. kin joined us then.. then sab and kel gtg liaozz.. haihzzz.. sad moment.. hehe.. at least got to take a pic wid her.. =p then accompany her to almost the front door ler.. waited a distance away to continue to look at her.. hmmm.. this was the last time i'm seeing her for 3 months.. reality hit me.. HARD.. was kinda sad later on.. but luckily not too bad.. cuz my friends were still here.. heheheh..
then went up to kiku zakura lo for dinner.. haih.. stupid Mutha****ing restaurant man!!! explain later.. so we seated ourselves.. then the girl came and asked if we wanted to order drinks first la.. so okay lo.. most ordered ocha (green tea for non japanese ppl.. hahaahahhaha).. but kin ordered cold sake le.. then an old lady with a sagging chest all the way to the floor (*uggghhhhhh*) came to ask us whether wanna order the main course now or not.. we said no.. then 5 minutes later the biatch ask again.. wanna order now? "we said, err, we're waiting for the friends to arrive.." our reply was.. "oh like that a?.. then yuo gonna have a loooongg que la" and then walked off.. i was like OMFG??.. wad the F??? then me and yang gotreally pissed la.. and shouted "cho mat chat a???!!?!?!" den she never tiu.. we nvm liao.. 8.30 came then we wanted to order first la.. czu they were going to be late... so we called.. and guess who came to serve us.. that old hag again.. then when we asked her nicely, we want to order... she say.. "you wait la" i was like wanted to slap the daylights out of her man.. haihz.. then we wait lo.. wait till lile 8.45 then only got ppl come.. after pestering.. haihz.. then order liao lo.. then julia ordered a tempura udon mee.. then when her order came, it was sushi udon.. we didn't know that the two were different cuz the pics looked the same.. so they got mixed up and julia ended up eating the more expensive wan.. like RM14 more expensive.. so when the bill came, we of course they would have the damned common sense to charge us for the cheaper one.. cuz it was their mistake, and it was their kitchen who got things messed up and ended up giving us something else.. none of our business.. we're just supposed to order, eat and pay... so when we paid, that F-biatch really charged the expensive wan.. wah.. that was like the last straw.. me, zero and kin exploded at the counter.. shouting here and there.. all the customers hearing what we say, then look at her like she was really really dumb to charge us for her waitress' mistake.. we tiu tiu tiu there for like 15 minutes, then only she wanna admit that yes, she'll ask the restaurant to be responsible for it.. i guess that's after the stares from the customers and our constantly raising voices.. hahaha.. teach her a lesson to be rude.. MFer..
then the rest was ok ler.. we said our goodbyes after buying my stuff for NS ler.. haha.. had some essentials to buy.. hehe.. then that was my goodbye ler.. went to kin's hse later on to hang round.. came back home at 12 and was really devastated by the thought that today was the last time i saw my baby, the one whom i love so much with all my heart for the last time in 82 days.. haih... oh well, bring it on.. NS, i'm ready for you.. gimme ur best shot..
PS: i'm 85% bald when writing this.. hahahahah.. =p only a few ppl have seen me like this.. i look like a damned monkey now... hahahahahhahahahah.. nitex and sayonara!
hmmm... i wonder how i did.. but you know what, strangely enough, i dont' feel as nervous as i was for my UPSR results.. hmmm.. oh, well, probably i'm weird la.. haha.. i'm just hoping that the jinx i have for major exams does not repeat!.. haha... the jinx of having 5As everytime... hehhee..
crap.. it just takes away my mood thinking about it.. last night i wanted to go to bed at around 10... cause i know i had to rise early.. for my medical checkup before going to NS.. but before going to bed, i wanted to call her ler.. hmmm.. turned out she just got home from her sis's camp.. so in the end cannot call lo.. she was having dinner then also ler.. hmmmm.. then as i lay on my bed, looking at the ceiling.. i kept thinking and thinking of what will happen in the camp, what will happen here in KL.. thinking will i be missed? will i be thought of, even if its once a week.. thoughts can be hazardous actually.. i know what you're thinking now.. you're thinking "gosh, you're only going to be gone for 3 months.. that will like be only 0.003% of your whole life.. you're not going to be gone forever.. geeezzz..." but actually, that actually reflects what i think.. hmmm.. i really feel as though this 3 months will signal the start of the end for a lot of things in my life.. i'm really afraid to lose things.. lose people.. i hate to lose...
you know, its funny.. remember when i was really down.. really torn apart by the status of my relationship.. and when i wrote all my emotions, thoughts and anything about the relationship in this very blog?.. hmmm.. i realised later that i was over that phase.. i was free from feeling shitty and always worrying bout the end.. and i really was.. but maybe only til now.. there were times where i couldn't see her for long long times, say a week or 2.. and i would feel lonely and sad.. but these few days, it's kinda changed.. i haven't seen her from last friday.. so that makes like 4 days not even catching a glimpse of her.. but somehow, i feel even lonelier and more depressed.. it's like the feeling of me missing her has intensified.. 10 fold..
saturday was a really good day for me.. hmm.. although she couldn't come to km's birthday party, i felt something i never felt for a long time.. i felt that time, she really wanted to come, that she really tried to come.. hmm.. that even though she couldn't make it in person, she tried her best to come and see me.. and i was happy.. =) on saturday, i felt as though i was the closest to her in a few months.. i couldn't stop wanting to call you.. (although it cost me my credit! *bluek*) hmmm.. memories perhaps?
anyhow, i don't know what the future will bring.. nor what the past will offer me.. but i do know that although i don't have almighty powers to alter the course of fate.. i want to try to save this.. last week she messaged me when i was down.. she said that it was getting better.. and i truly believed it.. how i only wished that it would stick in my head and tell me that everything's gonna be alright..